Picture time!

Here are some pics I took tonight!

He looks really good!  Honestly, you'd never know he had radiation therapy on his face.  I am still basically in denial that my dog has this awful cancer inside him.  It's just not fair - AT ALL.  It really makes me furious that it turned out this way.  It's been hard to concentrate on other things because I just want to spend as much as I can with him, and I hate that most of my day is spent away from him.  I know he is just a dog, as some people would say, but I don't have kids and right now my dogs are basically furry, four-legged kids and are just an important part of my life.  It's just I can't imagine how lonely and sad it will be when he is gone.  I'm not ready to lose him, but I do understand that we will never be ready for something like that.  I just still think of him as a pup.  Damn it - life you suck sometimes!! 

As far as an update on how he is doing, he is doing pretty well.  He is still having some mild huffing episodes, but nothing that doesn't stop within a few seconds, at least so far, thankfully, and it's maybe only once in a 24hr period.  I'm giving his Piroxicam basically every 18-20 hrs.  His eyes still water quite a bit, especially the right one, but nothing too bad.  I'm sure this is something he'll have the remainder of his life.  Sometimes he paws at his eyes but only for a second, and when he does I give them a nice gentle rub and he seems to like that and it makes it feel better, I guess.  The vet in NY called back about my email concerning the Neoplasene treatment.  I have not called back yet.  I guess I can get a free 5 min phone consult with the doctor to talk in general about the protocol.  I haven't made up my mind to do it or not.  It would seem weird to have a Dr. in NY handle this treatment.  I mean, I'm not even sure if she really is reputable.  I have to do some more research.  I really hope our current oncologist at the U will be helpful, at least maybe recommending me to someone who maybe can help. 

Anyway, just thought I would post some pics and such as it has been awhile!  Hope you enjoy them!  Have a great night!